Control vs. Restoration

The hardest thing for me to admit is that I would rather be in control than be restored. I want my relationship with God restored, my relationship with family and friends restored, my original peace and happiness restored, but I want it my way. Come on, you feel the same way. And we must be restored to reach our full potential, to find our purpose (did everyone read the title banner). We say we want all that God has for us and we want to go deeper with Him, but do we really? If it means giving up control and abandoning ourselves to His will are we still willing? Are we willing to let Him dissolve our existence into Him?